Showing posts with label Hudson. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Hudson. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Final - Dear Dad

After interviewing 15 women about their relationship with their father I have compiled my final book. I've written a introduction and reflection to accompany the portraits, interviews, and handwriting photos of the women. Overall I'm very happy with the project and definitely want to keep exploring these issues and experiment with the form they take. I really enjoyed the time I spent working on this as well as the final product. Because most of my projects take the form of writing and small installations it's nice to actually have a object. Something physical to keep and share.  

You can view the book digitally here. 

Here are a few pictures....














To review my documentation of all my projects click the label link that says Hudson at the bottom of this post. 

Monday, December 1, 2008

Work in progress..

Heres a look at a few of my interviews and portraits that will be included in my final project. I'll include a explanation/introduction to it when I document the final piece...



Connie Bramble
Iowa City, Iowa
65 years old

01. What is happy memory you have that involves your father?

Being apart from my father for 32 years was hard for me but in 2005 I decided to move to Iowa to care for him. He was turning 100 that year.

02. What is sadder memory that involves him?

Not being close to him as a child. He was raised to work and care for the family and with very little interaction. 

03. What is trait you admire in your father?

He is always positive, never negative even at 103. Always caring for others. Always happy.

04. What is a trait that frustrates you or comes between you two? 

Not showing affection to mom or me. It has affected me in my relationship with my daughter and other family members and friends.

05. When was the last time you spoke and what was the general context/mood of the conversation?

I see him everyday and at age 103 some days are better than others. Some days like today he was very alert and could carry on a conversation without much difficulty.

06. What is something that has been left unsaid or difficult to say to him? 

Everyone feel I should tell my dad is it OK to just let go and die. He seems to be waiting to make sure I’ll be ok. My husband passed about 3 years ago and I feel he wants to make sure I’m OK. I try to reassure him all the time but I just can’t say “dad it’s OK to go be with mom.”






Jennifer Myers
New York City, NY
29 years old

 01. What is happy memory you have that involves your father?

On Sundays we would go to the park (Central Park) with Mariah and her dad. It was always lots of fun. 

02. What is sadder memory that involves him?

Seeing him deteriorate now – with dementia – specifically having to change his diapers.

03. What is trait you admire in your father?

Resourceful imagination – to overcome terrible life situations out of his control (i.e. his childhood).

04. What is a trait that frustrates you or comes between you two?

His inability to listen, to me or to others.

05. When was the last time you spoke and what was the general context/mood of the conversation?

2 days ago we spoke on the phone (October. 15) and the tone was very confused about where he was living…

06. What is something that has been left unsaid or difficult to say to him? 

I would remind him during the period we didn’t get along I still understood he loved me and I loved him. Now I would want him to know we always love him through his illness  




Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Artist Book

So I've been researching and looking at various artists books to get alternate ideas for the composition of my book I'm working on. I stumbled upon this artist book, which is by Nicola Dale. She collected lines from her favorite British poetry and created her own poem. I obviously connected with this as it's similar to one of my projects I presented. I also love her creativity in the composition of the book. Pretty much brilliant. Check out her other stuff as well, its pretty interesting. Nicola Dale

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Mark Manders

I came across Mark Manders when I was looking through the archive of reviews on Circa Art Magazine's website. I usually check out Circa because of their amazing design and layout work,but figured it was also a good spot to try to find a new artist to post on here. I hadn't heard of Mark Manders before but was interested after reading the review on his Self-Portrait as a Building. It's a highly conceptual work of art where he creates several scenarios that relate to rooms of a building or living space. These scenarios are highly reduced versions of what they would be like in real life and also present a new twist or story within it. What really got me interested was a writing about the piece I found on his website. It's beautifully written and very intriguing. I especially love the first line,

"Under a table you have the possibility to test your own absence. The realization that life is taking its course, even without you, is an intense human experience; it shows the finiteness of personality."

Monday, November 3, 2008

Observation Walk Writing Piece.

It's fairly short but I like it. I'm combing my own observations of several different men and my own personal thoughts I had written down. This is something I'm really starting to enjoy, as I did similar things in my last project. I like the idea of creating characters and stories through sentences and words that didn't originally exist together. 


He must be traveling somewhere with that rolling suitcase. 
He seems to work so diligently. 
Hurry, haste, keep up the pace. [He says to himself]
He looks around, he wanders.
Hand on chin, he wonders. [What do they do in the rooms so high above it all. Some lights on, some lights off. Some active, some passive. Some alone, some accompanied. If I could hear their thoughts the roar of sound would most surely be overwhelming. Still, I wonder. ]



Reconstructed Narratives

This last project was a demonstration of a hobby of mine. When reading, I have a habit of fixating on simple sentences that are beautifully written. I often underline and make notes about these and come back to them later. Here I presented 5 books that I have enjoyed reading in the past. I went through each book and looked at stuff I had underlined, notes I had made, and skimmed pages to find stuff I may have missed. With these I constructed new narratives for each book. The lines were taken from various points within each book, and organized in a way that told a similar story the book did, but with a different focus. In some I focused on a character and used lines to describe them, others I took sentences that related to a strong emotion or common theme in the book to retell the story. I really enjoy this practice and what comes out of it. I have even more appreciation for the books after doing this.


Heres a view of the installation:



Here are the 5 books and the reconstructed narratives that they were paired with:


Sylvie was about thirty-five, tall, and narrowly built.

Her raincoat was so shapeless and oversized that she must have found it on a bench.

Sylvie always walked with her head down, to one side, with an abstracted and considering expression, as if someone were speaking to her in a soft voice.

“It was nice with the lights off,” she suggested.

 [Evening was her special time of day.]

Sylvie had no awareness of time.

I was content with Sylvie.

Such habits (she always slept clothed, at first with her shoes on, and then, after a month or two, with her shoes under her pillow) were clearly the habits of a transient.

Watching her seemed very much like dreaming, because the motion was always the same, and was necessary , and arduous, and without issue, and repeated.

…why do our thoughts turn to some gesture of a hand, a fall of a sleeve, some corner of a room on a particular anonymous afternoon, even when we are asleep, and even when we are so old that our thoughts have abandoned other business?

…what are all these fragments for, if not to be knit up finally?

Sylvie smiled and nodded. “Now you’re in on my secret…”

She had left without a word, or a sound. 


Dear Friend,

I am writing to you because she said you would listen and understand and didn’t try to sleep with that person at that party even though you could have.

This is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.

I don’t know the significance of this but I find it very interesting.

It happens very fast, and things start to slip away.

I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. Then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can’t.

It makes me think too much.

I just want it all to stop spinning.

I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. That you wanted to not be aware that you exist.

I guess what I’m saying is that this all feels very familiar.

I was suddenly aware of the fact that it was me standing up in that tunnel with the wind over my face.

I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite.

The policemen found me pale blue and asleep.

Not thinking anything. Not feeling anything. Not hearing the record. For hours.

So if this does end up being my last letter, please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.

I will believe the same about you.


Let the truth seep out, that’s what I’ll do.

I was young and had so much more orientation and could talk with nervous intelligence.

Work was my dominant thought – not love. Not the pain, which impels me to write this even while I don’t want to, the pain which won’t be eased by the writing of this but heightened, but which will be redeemed, and if only it were a dignified pain and could be placed somewhere other than in this black gutter of shame.

[Quick to plunge, bite, put the light out, hide my face in shame.]

Rise, do some typing and coffee drinking in the kitchen.

[It was enough to drive anybody crazy.]

Something is sick in me, lost, fears –

Suddenly someone had come up and was standing in the stairwell.

Well, I thought, this is the end…

And I go home, having lost her love.

[You threw away a little woman’s love because you wanted another drink with a rowdy friend from the other side of your insanity]


Fortune will not necessarily turn out in the way we want but in the way it must. It is a modern heresy to think that if we do right always, we will avoid situations for which there is no earthly solution.

You can live as a particle crashing about and colliding in a welter of materials with God, or you can live as a particle crashing about and colliding in a welter of materials without God. But you cannot live outside the welter of colliding materials.

The Mahabharata says, “Of all the world’s wonders, which is the most wonderful?”

“That no man, though he sees others dying all around him, believes that he himself will die.”

There’s nothing makes us feel so much alive as to see other dies. That’s the sensation of life – the sensation that we remain.

It really doesn’t matter if it is I who die or another. What matters is that we are all marked men.

How can an individual count? Do individuals count only to us other suckers, who love and grieve like elephants, bless their hearts.

Although we are here today, tomorrow cannot be guaranteed. Keep this in mind! Keep this in mind!

Someone is getting excited. 

This person is laughing out loud…

-- This person is not who they thought this person was

[She’s blasé. She doesn’t give a shit.]

For a moment, this person is almost creeped out by the scene, but it would be so like this person to become depressed on the happiest day ever.

This person’s heart was broken.

This person hardly knows what to think.

[Some may say that such a girl is not ready for a relationship with a man.]

How strong this person was.

-- This person is not who they thought this person was.

[She’s grown a lot since you last saw her.]

[I think she’s going to become a terrific woman one day.]

This person sighs. This persons eyes begin to close, this person sleeps. 



Monday, October 27, 2008

Miranda July

Miranda July is multi-talented. She's a great writer (you may have noticed in my last project her book 'No One Belongs Here More than You'), shes a filmmaker, and she does performance art. She is well known for her movie 'You, Me and Everyone We Know'. I really enjoyed this movie and since seeing it I have been following her work. I would love to get my hands on more of her short films. 

She also takes part in the Learning to Love You More Project with Harrell Fletcher. Check it out. 

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Cedar Rapids Art Show - Havester

i know i know. im blogging like crazy currently but i had to post this.

local art show in cedar rapids. my friend meghan bean from a couple posts ago will be showing. also looks like our own meg has some entries as well!

this is something many of you could easily apply for and show next year. the due date is usually in august sometime.

(sorry the resolution is horrible...its the best i got)



A Divide.



Individual Project #1 Documentation : A Divide. 

How it started:

Initially I was considering simply putting together a cut and paste poem using lines of text of my own, and some of my favorite poets. One night I was watching an interview with John Baldessari on UBU web and began to discuss this project. I was inspired by this idea of taking something in your life that hold significance somehow, but seems so pointless. I was immediately reminded of the large box of greeting cards I had saved over the years that was hiding under my bed. I knew right then that I wanted to incorporate them so how. 

Further Thought:

All my life I have saved these things for some reason that I never understood until I started to examine and read through them all again. The emotions were very strong as I was reminded of old friends, relationships, and memories. My strongest reaction however, was one of confusion. There was a huge divide between how I see myself, and how all these people see me. It was a mixed emotion in that it was nice to read all the kind words and maybe have some reassurance that I am my own harshest critic, but also very hurtful and confusing to feel like maybe I have fooled all these people. 

My interest within my own art lies in those very emotions and reflections I was just expressing so I decided to combine my first idea and still create a cut and paste poem, only use the poem to express the reflections and emotions I was experiencing.

It was my goal to have the cards and poem speak to each other in a sense. The goal for my audience was to simply interact with the cards, interpret the poem, and get a sense of the emotion I was experiencing. I wanted to show the two sides of my perspective of myself...as well as everyones perspective of me. I had also hoped that within the cards the audience could find connections of their own, and maybe did some personal reflection as well. 


Here is an image of the whole installation as I presented it, with the lights off and the glow of a small lamp covered by sheer matieral. (I changed it after the class critique. I set up the poem at a different time of setting up light and the cards so I rearranged differently afterwards)



Heres a view with the lights on just to get a better idea of how it was set up:


The poem read. 

[the inevitable, everlasting equation]
distance + time = change

i want to breakdown
in your arms
[im a coward in every direction]
and for once allow myself
to reduce to my simplest, purest form

[im staring in my head, missing your thoughtful arms]
you know me
better than I know myself

 i need  you here
[where is my comfort, where's heart ease, where are tears of joy, where are the companions}
to help me realize
the person
the potential
that i truly am


Here are a few of my favorite cards up close:











Monday, October 6, 2008

inspiring local artist

Meghan Bean is a good friend of mine who graduated last year from Mount Mercy College in Cedar Rapids with a BFA in painting. Maybe I'm biased, but I love her work and her overarching statement/interest. I really enjoy her installations, which she feels is her weak point. But check out her paintings as well, she's got some amazing talent. 

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Reading Review

I was looking at different art blogs and found this one where someone is posting things they find and consider "new art". It really encompasses anything current going on and it quite interesting. He also has a great extensive list of books and websites to check out. 

Anyways, it was on his blog that I found this Realtime Art Manifesto. I found it interesting as I haven't really considered digital 3-d programs as a medium for artwork, instead my mind immediately goes to video games. But here they are calling at creatives to consider the technology in new ways and also reciting their own ideas about how the programs should be used creatively. To respond to this, I'll break it all down just as they have in the Manifesto. 

1. Realtime 3-D as a medium for artistic expression. 

I enjoy the idea of taking this medium that is so often used by people to get rich, and make it something creative and expressive. Especially this technology, its a completely new idea to me, perhaps I was just to ignorant to think past it's use for video games, which I have no interest in. However the statement, "the most stunning art to grace this planet so far" is a bit forward. My major is graphic design and I love working with computers to create DESIGN. But I don't always consider my design "art" because I can be trying to communicate the most simple of messages such as "sign up for this contest". Although the work can be beautiful, I think art lies more in the meaning, reflection, and analysis of things. I think digital 3-d rendering can be hard to define as art because its usually the look of things that is stunning rather than the ideas behind them. 

2. Be an Author

I really enjoy this section. I feel that they are communicating what I just tried to say about design as art. It's typically not! It often is driven by marketers and shaped in board room meetings, there's no getting around it, its a business.  But I also feel they are making an argument that for all these mediums that are so heavily driven by business, there is an artistic aspect that can be reached through a "singular vision" and "personal passion". I apply this myself once again as I think about graphic design projects in class/in the business world vs. my own projects that I choose to take on. One is sterile and driven by many outside forces, the other is driven by a personal vision and love for design. 

"ignore the critics and fanboys. make work for you audience instead". I think this is a really defining statement of their overall message. They want this medium to be taken out of the field thats trying to appeal to a group that determines success, and put in a field that appeals to a group that interprets, interacts, and appreciates. "stop making games, be an author" or in other words...stop using the medium for its typical use and create something unique, original, and thoughtful. 

Im glad they make a point of giving current video games for having artistic moments, because honestly the way they are using the technology can sometimes be absolutely incredible. 

3. Create a Total Experience

I find this section interesting in that I'm surprised there hasn't been a game that hasn't already aimed to do this...I feel like there may have been and they aren't giving credit. Maybe not in the exact same sense they are speaking, but Im sure there are video games that do their best to stimulate multiple senses and immerse the user in a new world. I guess they major departure point for video games is that there is the one element, the one goal that stands out. As opposed to what they are arguing as having every element be equally impressive and important. 

4. Embed the User in the Environment. 

" It has to feel real, not necessarily look real" ... what a challenge! It amazes me that such a medium exists. 

The idea to imitate life, not photography, games, and to aim for realism in a multi-sensory way seems so obvious for such a medium, but then again I can't think of a video game that doesn't simply strive for photo-realism...

They discuss interaction here as well. Funny that not once did this come to mind while discussing our participation reading. After all, it is participating. Although it's not in our real social sphere, it can easily be viewed as a constructed social sphere that aims for similar goals. I see a similarity in the article and this manifesto when they say "reject the body-mind duality". I felt that "Participation" addressed interaction through critical awareness, but more so encourage physical interaction, which is emphasized here as well. 

5. Reject Dehumanization: Tell Stories

This is another departure from simply using the medium as a "game". They encourage users to reject plots and embrace non-linearity. Why not? If you are using a medium where you want to create environments that resemble reality, you have to. Reality has no set plot, all of our lives are non-linear. That is why games are in fact games! They have a goal, they have set levels and a set course. I never thought of this medium having ambiguity until this manifesto. Before my mind was stuck to the idea that it was only used for games, but here its intriguing to think that it can go so many places/directions based off of a users interaction. 

Their three additional elements of drama are interesting, in that without them, the idea of having somebody participate would be de-emphasized. Not only does the creator/artist determine how things look/work within Realtime, the user/participants role is crucial to how its effective and how its interpreted. 

6. Interactivity wants to be Free

Perhaps the most interesting and intriguing aspect of this medium, according to me. It's choices and its limitlessness. There's no boundaries unless the author sets them. 

7. Don't Make Modern Art

This section is quite the statement, a bit presumptuous, and a bit too general. They completely downplay the museum, and to me, it feels like they are saying this art can save the world! People are starving for the experiences and the best way to give them these experiences is through a digitally rendered medium! You can share your vision without the use of a computer. You can connect and communicate just as well on the street as you can in a digital world. I believe there is a lot of thought involved in some artists "modern art" and to discredit that is slightly irrational and arrogant. 

8. Reject Conceptualism

Im biased here because I really enjoy conceptual things. here we go. Conceptualism is so much more than simple documentation and ideas to read about. Its often therapy or a search for something more within the artist himself. I feel they are limiting the definition of art here and ignoring the fact that sometimes its ok to allow your art to simply be something that soothes your soul rather than changes the world. 

"Go over their heads! Dominate them! Show them how its done!" .....Yikes. This scares me. 

I enjoy ideas and like making people read about them rather than saying it all in a work. It's a way of showing who you are and letting people in. 

9. Embrace Technology 

A relation to intermedia lies here as it encourages artist to use whats available. However intermedia doesn't discredit the more subtle and overlooked mediums, where as I feel these people would look at somebody who considers their creative writing art and laugh in their face. 

They also say that distribution of software is unique as it can be done over the internet ( a non -elite medium ). However there are still plenty of people who either dont have the financial abilities to access the internet or dont have the training/knowledge to know how it works. Id say it can be pretty damn elite. 

10. Develop a Punk Economy

I think it goes without saying that much of todays art has to go unfunded by government/industry funding. The amount of art that goes unwitnessed/unrecognized far outnumber the art that is being created through grants and outside financial sources. 

Cutting out the middle man is a nice thought as it leads to direct communication, but in most art forms I feel it may be impossible. 

"Do not allow institutional or economical control of your intellectual property, ideas, technology , and inventions." I think this also goes without saying. Most art would be discredited once it came to this point.



Interesting, frustrating, and eye opening article. Not quite sure how I feel yet. Sorry for writing so much. 


Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Article questions...

Whats the difference between simply raising a critical consciousness and having physically respond. I mean besides the obvious, ones mental, ones an actual action. If the goal is reveal social relationships/new social realities, wouldn't thought be just as powerful to one man, than action is to the other? 
(I feel like people's responses are much to subjective to say that art that actually makes people participate is any more effective...)

What does bishop mean that art created as a group has the "aesthetic benefit of greater risk"
Risk to affect people? Risk of actually creating change? Risk of getting attacked? Risk of being blamed for actions? Risk of...? 

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Sophie Calle

This weekend Ive been reading up on Sophie Calle looking for some inspiration on how Id like to present my next project. I found this article that I really enjoyed. I found it really interesting how she makes artistic. intelligent projects from traumatic situations as a way to take of herself or deal with her suffering. 

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Always Sunny In Philadelphia

I'm sure some of you have heard of the show. This is the intro to the new season. Maybe not the most insanely creative thing, nonetheless its well put together and pretty entertaining. 

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Current Inspirations


although it's less inspiring to the intermedia artist, this is one of my current go-to's for ideas being that my major is graphic design.